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Lost, Found and Lost Again

Sat Sep 26, 2009, 4:21 AM
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: Anis Mojgani
  • Reading: Old Blog entries
  • Eating: Hummus
  • Drinking: Tea
It’s not the show, its not the map or directions.. it’s a state of mind.

You wake up in the morning and sometimes ignore these thoughts.. those feelings your soul cries out for.. and go on wash your face, like it would stop the voices and wash your soul away.. it’s not working but then you just ignore.

You get out of your home and begin your day, your searching for something unknown and unseen. Look around and fake some smiles, fake some words and it hits you in the middle of the day, “there’s something missing. there’s something that is not here” but where? and more important, When? but sooner you ignore, yet again! these thoughts and go on with your daily fake.. daily headache and pain. sometimes you feel it and sometimes you just, yes, ignore!

Then late at night, you sit alone, if you’re lucky enough, and explore this inner self you ignored for so long. and it hits you that you’re LOST. you have a lot but not what you really need, not what you’re hoping for or what you expect out of this world. you want to change the world, you want to change your life or one thing at least but too afraid. cause keeping what you already have is better than trying and losing it all. you think and frown.

You still want to change something, many things or everything. but instead, you sleep. you ignore and shut these voices of your soul and put them to sleep.. and simply ignore.

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Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Amman - Jordan
  • Interests: Music, Photography, Walking, Rain, Writing
  • Favourite movie: A Knight's Tale, Se7en
  • Favourite band or musician: Alanis Morressite , Trisha yearwood, metallica, Anathema, my dying bride, Mozart, Bizet
  • Favourite genre of music: almost all but i love soft, alternative rock, metal, classic music
  • Favourite artist: hard to say but i love bon jovi and alanis morressite
  • Favourite poet or writer: i dont read much but i like the works of jibran khalil jibran
  • Operating System: OS x
  • MP3 player of choice: ipod nano
  • Favourite cartoon character: Captin Planet :p and Bugs Bunny <3
  • Personal Quote: I dont Have any regrets, i just look back at life and laugh :D
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:iconambair:
Ameer malakoush!?! sounds like an Iranian name! just kidding it's me,the hidden talent,or maybe the only talent in our crazy class ;D

lets see...I don't forget people I've met,I can even remember faces I've seen on the bus, or anywhere if I squeeze my memory quite a bit.

If I'm not mistaken, ur last name is jaghandoqa, or jarandoqa!!! you like metal as well!
:iconjansait:
LOL @ Iranian name :D

Qoughondoqa is my last name.. u were close. and yeah i like metal and rock music.. what do u do and where did life take you? its funny we meet here! lol
:iconambair:
Aaaa3, Qoughondoqa, same rhyme
Well I moved to Chicago jan 08, switching from an architect to a character animator, on my way to make a dream of working at disnay or pixar a reality. Moving to California next summer [link]

what about you!
:iconjansait:
I'm still in Amman. IT outsourcing to Weightwatchers . u must have heard of them? nothing very interesting really.. especially comparing to what you've done so far and your dreams! Good luck :) im at a point where not so sure what i want :S
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